I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together.
—Marilyn Monroe

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Growing Up Is Hard To Do




This past weekend I returned to my old stomping grounds...college! My little brother graduated from the engineering school at Ole Miss and I couldn't be more proud. I graduated from Ole Miss 3 years ago and this whole time I have been trying to figure out what I wanna do with my life. I have had some major setbacks in this process, but also some amazing adventures. My breakup was difficult along with working towards my second degree. But I also have met some of the most amazing people this year that I would not be who I am right now without them. I have spent so much time focusing on what I should be doing...career, marriage, family, house, car, etc and not nearly enough on what I want to be doing while I am still young. So when I got back to Oxford, I went out with a bunch of college kids, aka my brother and his friends. I had the most amazing time. We went to dinner on a fabulous patio and then went to a house party. I can not tell you the last time I went to a house party. I was living my youth again and on my turf. Obviously it was not the same without all my sorority sisters and my friends, but it was darn close. I felt more alive and even though I was the oldest person hanging out with all of them, I never felt that my age was a factor. It made me miss my college experience so much and what I wouldn't give to go back there again. This weekend taught me that at some point I have to grow up, but right now I just am not ready. And for the first time in a long time, I think that I am okay with that. I have the rest of my life to be grown up. Right now I want to embrace my youth and happy at where I am in my life. Oh the things that Ole Miss can teach me.

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